karma

it feels like just few days ago me and him talk about emails from other student that lost their atm..
we said "how could they forget to take their atm card? it doesn't make sense! if you lost your wallet it can be understand.. but loosing only atm card???"
and we keep making fun of it..

but then..
just yesterday i did what we called as stupid mistake..

yep..
i lost my atm card..

as i remember.. last time i use it was on friday, 2pm..
when i try to rewind my memory on to that time, i was not in a hurry..
and i think i put the atm card back to my wallet, because i also put the money in..
and yesterday afternoon im going to take some money and just realize that the card is not there..
it feels like my heart stopped..
and then i panicked..

first thing i did was rushing to the bank and print my bank book..
(well, it was saturday and bank was close, so printing is my only option)
but how unlucky i am, because my bank book run out of pages..
so i can't check my last balance..

finally after calming down my self i called the customer service..
and surprisingly, they have excellent english which is really rare in this country..
so, they've canceled my card, and thank God the balance is still the same..

next thing to do in the morning is go to the bank and make new card..
which will cost me 300baht..
hiiiks..

is it a karma?
i don't think so, because we shouldnt believe in karma, right?
but the lesson learn is don't say anyone is fool because you might also be like them someday..
so i take my words back..
people who loosing their atm card is not a fool

please don't ignore me

Do you think you are better off alone??

Talk to me..

Please..

Don't treat me like your worst enemy..

. . .

Alice Deejay - Better Off Alone

ku akan..

I'll be..
All you have to do is ask..

. . .

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

And I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be loves suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

And I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be loves suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the thing that you said

And I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be loves suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your
I'll be your crying shoulder

I'll be loves suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
The greatest fan of your life
The greatest fan of your life

Edwin McCain - I'll Be

something's wrong

yesterday i saw a smile in your face,
one time, yes, only one time,
and it is not because of me..

i've tried to make you draw another curve on your face,
but i failed.

i know there is something wrong..
i keep asking but ended up with no answer..

why you keep everything for your self..
can't you share anything anymore with me..
why i can't be the one who can make you smile..
make you feel comfort..
ease the tension in you, even for a little bit
why i can't make any different in you like what you did to me..

milik mu

Open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love

I won't hesitate no more..
It cannot wait,
I'm yours..

So I won't hesitate no more
It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate
Please don't,
There's no need to complicate

Our time is short
This is our fate,
I'm yours!

. . .

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch on over closer dear
And i will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed

I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait
I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours

Please don't, please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This oh this this is out fate, I'm yours!

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

hunting duren

Setelah bergabung sejenak di rapat permitha,
akhirnya saya melarikan diri bersama gerombolan lainnya..

sasarannya adalah hunting duren..

karna belum musimnya, makhluk bernama duren sangat sulit ditemui..
padahal kalo lagi membludak di kantin kampus pun ada..

datanglah tawaran untuk mencari keberadaan duren di pasar induk dekat kampus..
tawaran yang sungguh menggiurkan bila dibandingkan dengan rapat yang.. begitulah...

setelah menggoes sepeda cukup jauh, dan tak lupa NGANGKAT sepedah naik turun jembatan penyebrangan, nyampe juga kami disana..
ketemu lah tempat jualan duren..
banyaaaaaak durennya..
tapi sayangnya tak ada yang suk suk mak mak.. alias mateng..

akhirnya nemu juga satu duren yang agak mateng, meskipun harus melewati perjuangan mengelilingi pasar duren dan mendatangi satu persatu tempat jualan..
lumayan, dari pada pulang dengan tangan kosong..
duren kami beli dengan harga 25baht per kilo buat yang belum dikupas,
sedangkan yang udah dikupas gak tau juga perkilo nya berapa..

setelah memborong duren dengan total harga 260baht, kami ber9 pun nongkring menghabiskan duren dengan kalapnya..
itung2 mengisi perut dan mengisi energi untuk ngegoes sepedah balik kekampus..
badan sudah hangat..
sudah sanggup ngebut menghindari anjing2 yang menggonggong dan siap mengejar.. hehehe

akhirnya tau juga tempat jual duren di talad thai..
wi hiiii...

salam hangat dari kami ber9 dan dari si ibu2 penjual duren (yang mejeng paling depan)

i dont want

why can't you understand that i don't want to..
and keep making excuses..

why you need to ask me directly in front of others..
i think you know the answer why.
yes... because it is for me and you. and not for others.

i acted like i don't want something,
and i keep talking something else so i don't need to explain it.

which part of it that you don't understand?

bastard

I cant stop thinking,
What everyone else will think if they found out about us,
and the story about our game.

"you damn lucky bastard"

maybe.

but don't you dare to make me dreaming.
because it will be too beautiful..

apple

it is not the apple of adam and eve
it is ours

thank you jaan..

drink it

you said you are not an alcoholic drinker..
but i know you are..

yes, you are not suppose to drink any kind of alcohol..
but i know that white wine is your favorite..

you can't resist the temptation of drinking white wine..
you will always look for one..
and a sip of sparkling white wine can always brightened up you day..

however, only a glass of red wine is served in front of you,
every day..
you also like it..
you enjoy it..
but when you come to your senses that you are not allowed to drink..
you can stop your self..
but you will again take it after..

so dear,
don't claim your self as not an alcoholic drinker..
because i know you drink that white wine even when you said you wont..
i don't need to ask to know..

and i will give you a glass of red wine every day..
oh yes i will..
even though i know it is a glass of sparkling white wine that you are yearning for..
because deep down i hope you will also taste the wine i gave
and addicted to it

told ya

You can say that i'm heart-less,
or a numb person,
but i'm sorry, i have no regrets..

even how many times we wash our hands..
it cannot be completely clean..

and the worst part is..
i really do like it..
and really do cherish every part of it

is gonna be alright

Don't worry, about a thing..
Cause every little thing is gonna be alright..
Yes, every little thing is gonna be alright..

I keep singing it..
inside my heart..

December 31st, 2008
11.00 am

. . .

Don't worry about a thing,
cause every little thing is gonna be all right.
Singing: don't worry about a thing,
cause every little thing is gonna be all right!

Rise up this morning,
Smiled with the rising sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singing sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Saying, (this is my message to you-ou-ou:)

Singing: don't worry about a thing,
cause every little thing is gonna be all right.
Singing: don't worry (don't worry) about a thing,
cause every little thing is gonna be all right!

Rise up this morning,
Smiled with the rising sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singing sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Saying, this is my message to you-ou-ou:

Singing: don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!
Every little thing is gonna be all right. don't worry!
Singing: don't worry about a thing - I wont worry!
cause every little thing is gonna be all right.

Singing: don't worry about a thing,
cause every little thing is gonna be all right - I wont worry!
Singing: don't worry about a thing,
cause every little thing is gonna be all right.
Singing: don't worry about a thing, oh no!
cause every little thing is gonna be all right!

Connie Talbot - Three Little Birds

roti lapis

Thank you for playing..
and be a sandwich..

i really do thankful..

We will do better..
And try our best to keep it clean..

full moon

I look at the sky..
There is a full moon..
Shining really bright in the pathumthani sky..

Is it a sign of the new beginning?
Is it represent the optimism of a clean new chapter of our lives?

But..
Can we really wash our dirty hands,
Like nothing wrong ever happen?

Saturday, January 10th 2009
3 am sharp

dirty water

You ask me:
"Why do you want to play in dirty water?"

Dear,
I am not a saint that playing in dirty water..
Don't get fooled by the clarity it shows.
The pure look-a-like water has an undefined taste.
It is not a clean water.
It never is.

I am me.
Don't think that what u did is for my best interest.
Because for me, it is not making any good.
It destroys me.

Don't decide what is right and wrong for me.
Just let me be me.
And just accept me for who i am.
I never ask anything in return.