the once forgotten is now forgotten once again..

i was googling "Ciheluang 235B" because i kept receiving anonymous sms asking about "Rumah Kost",

and voila.. i came across this page again.. 

oh dear.. the once forgotten is now forgotten once again

when a heart breaks, it don't break even

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I really believe in
His best days will be some of my worst
While I'm wide awake he's no trouble sleeping

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
You got her heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Coz he's moved on while I'm still grieving
One still in love while the other ones leaving

Now I'm try to make sense of what little remains
Coz you left me with no love, no love to my name
I'm falling to pieces
When a heart breaks it don't break even


. . .

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got tI'me while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

The Script - breakeven

aadk!

aadk, alias ade ape dengan kecoak! 

since my first step entering this new room (not exactly my room, lets just say my temporary shelter), it crossed my mind that something is right with this room..

why?

i saw a dead cockroach on the floor.. stop dead, in a good shape, more like natural death (is it that important to describe that thing? )

and few days later, i saw a cockroach trying to crawl, and out of balance, and... dead after few minutes later..

see, something is so right! (well nothing wrong with it, isnt it?)

and few days after i saw another dead body of cockroach lying on the floor..

same thing happen again after few days.

five victims of cockroach already.

and no need to kill them.

they just.. surrender them selves and die..

i wonder is there any equipment plugged in this room?

(i once saw a commecial about an equipment using sound to get rid of bugs and insects)

but, i found nothing like it here..

today i found another cockroach lying, not moving, i assume it is dead.

and i was too happy!!

until..

one cockroach crawling on the wall when i start cooking, it came from under the stove..

and go up.. up.. up.. to the ceiling..

leave the room peacefully..

i was soo shocked! 

how come!

something wrong!

cockroach is not suppose to live in this room..

and one more cockroach came out from the same place, and crawling on the wall, following the trace of the previous cockroach.

ooh gosh..

what a horrifying experience..

please, make it right again 

pulkam

Start:	Jun 30, '09
End:	Jul 20, '09
Location:	pondok kelapa, jakarta timur

dear family and friends..
here i cooooomeee!!!

Just a reminder

that live is wonderful..

if u r in pain, feeling hurt, or facing any difficulties in ur life,
just remember,
that it takes no time to fall in love but it takes u years to know what love is.
that it takes some good to make it hurt and it takes same bad for satisfaction.
that it takes a lost before u found it and it takes a hole to make a mountain.
and i believe,
that life is wonderful,
life is meaningful,
and life goes full circle..

what goes around, always comes around :)

. . .

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a storie
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
And it takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you young brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la
It is so..
It is so..

It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a lost before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to show you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la

Jason Mraz - Life Is Wonderful

yesterday and today

yesterday,
i really want to hug you..
but i was afraid what you will do..

and today..
i encourage my self just to put my head on your arm..
but it was a mistake..
isnt it..

if i even cant put my head on your arms
how can i hug you?

why?
why i cant?

because of religion that we both believe in?

or simply because i am not your wife,
because i am not a part of your personal family.

i spend lot of days hugging you..
expressing any feelings to you..
how can u expect me to change now?

too difficult na?

is it too difficult for you to wait for me?

don't u think my delay also caused by you?

but again u will say "i am a rational person"

yes, you are rational but become not rational when related with her.

you can wait for hours only for her.

but no, not for me.

oh i forgot that i am joining you, only joining.. 

so whenever u will have i should follow.

but u did not consider me when making plans.

aaah

again, stupid and unnecessary thinking..

especially for this time..

sigh