start counting

Satu, dua, tiga, empat..
untuk mu mas

. . .

One two one two three four

Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you

You make it easy
It's as easy as one two one two three four

There’s only one thing
To do
Three words
For you
(I love you)
I love you

There’s only one way
To say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you)
I love you

Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you

You make it easy
It’s easy as one two one two three four

There’s only one thing
To do
Three words
For you
(I love you)
I love you

There’s only one way
To say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you)
I love you
(I love you)
I love you

You make it easy
It’s easy as one two one two three four

There’s only one thing
To do
Three words
For you
(I love you)
I love you
There’s only one way
To say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you)
I love you
(I love you)
I love you
One two three four
I love you
(I love you)
I love you

Plain White T's - 1 2 3 4

Halaman nya Papanda

http://aslamsumhudi.wordpress.com/
Walau satu ayat..

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ ~ أُبَلِّغُكُمْ وَلَوْ آيَة
(Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Aku sampaikan kepada kamu sekalian, walau satu ayat)
Sisihkan 15 menit pada tiga hari ini untuk memahami dan mengamalkan syariah dan aqidah Islam ini; luangkan sedikit waktu di dunia untuk bekal kehidupan abadi di akhirat. (wasiat dari aslam sumhudi)

Begitulah..
Halaman ini berisi cuplikan cuplikan wasiat yang diuntai oleh ayahanda tersayang..

An idiom

Dear,

It is just like telling you that it hurts when you hit me

And you said that you like to hit, and it is just you, and you can't change, you don't want to change

On the other hand, I am no one, not a person that can ask you to change your self

I know it hurts, but i'm too much care for you to leave you

Then you keep hitting me

and i keep being hurt

until one day, i die

people can call me stupid for keep being with you, but it is a choice in life that i will never regret

I think now i can understand how the victims of domestic violance think 

And NO, i'm not being violated by anyone 

late

What did i do last year
At the end of november
How can i passing by you without knowing what i am loosing
But now it is too late
I am no one, and will never be someone for you
Even though I'm late, but you are still the best

. .

Where are u all this time
The angel that I’ve been waiting for
Why is it just now that we are being assembled

Regrets don’t have any meaning
Because all things have happened
Now you will spend the rest of your life with her

Maybe it is my fault
Not recognizing you,
Not looking for you,
With all my heart
I'm sorry

My fault
Not recognizing you
Thus now you are with someone else
I’m sorry

If it can be rewind
You will be recognize
With all my heart I’ll look for where you are

Even though I'm late
You are still the best
Seeing you
Listen to you
You are the best

. . .

Kemana kau selama ini
Bidadari yang kunanti
Kenapa baru sekarang
Kita dipertemukan

Sesal tak kan ada arti
Karna semua telah terjadi
Kini kau telah menjalani
Sisa hidup dengannya

Mungkin salahku...
Melewatkanmu...
Tak mencarimu...
Sepenuh hati...
Maafkan aku...

Kesalahanku...
Melewatkanmu...
Hingga kau kini...
Dengan yang lain...
Maafkan aku...

Jika berulang kembali
Kau tak akan terlewati
Segenap hati kucari
Dimana kau berada

Mungkin salahku...
Melewatkanmu...
Tak mencarimu...
Sepenuh hati...
Maafkan aku...

Kesalahanku...
Melewatkanmu...
Hingga kau kini...
Dengan yang lain...
Maafkan aku...

Walau ku terlambat
Kau tetap yang terhebat
Melihatmu...
Mendengarmu...
Kaulah yang terhebat

Sheila on 7 - Yang terlewatkan

cinta kah?

A fifty-seven times for you mas..

. . .

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I love you
I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I love you
I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I love you
I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you

I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I just wanna say I love you
I love you

Potret – I just wanna say I love you

a trilogy books, can i?

this year i feel like my life has suddenly transformed into a soap opera.

and again my ambition to write a novel rises..

i start to imagine how it will be..

(well, i think it can be divided into three books.. a trilogy )

i started to make the chapter titles..

but if i really want to accomplish it i should work hard..

because last time i fail.. just lost my desire to write on the way.. maybe because at that time that story was just too hurtful..

now lets see what will happen next..

wish me luck guys.. 

the time

When that time will come,
I might not able to be there for you anymore..
But you know that this heart is yours until that time is come.

Aku ikhlas mas,
are you?

Take care naa..
Rab Raakha

. . .

Lelahmu jadi lelahku juga
Bahagiamu bahagiaku juga
Berbagi takdir kita selalu
Kecuali tiap kau jatuh hati

Kali ini hampir habis dayaku
Membuktikan padamu ada cinta yang nyata
Setia hadir setiap hari
Tak tega biarkan kau sendiri
Meski seringkali kau malah asyik sendiri

Karena kau tak lihat terkadang malaikat
Tak bersayap tak cemerlang tak rupawan
Namun kasih ini silakan kau adu
Malaikat juga tahu siapa yang jadi juaranya

Hampamu tak kan hilang semalam
Oleh pacar impian
Tetapi kesempatan untukku yang mungkin tak sempurna
Tapi siap untuk diuji
Kupercaya diri
Cintaku yang sejati

Namun tak kau lihat terkadang malaikat
Tak bersayap tak cemerlang tak rupawan
Namun kasih ini silakan kau adu
Malaikat juga tahu siapa yang jadi juaranya

Kau selalu meminta terus kutemani
Engkau selalu bercanda andai wajahku diganti
Relakan ku pergi
Karna tak sanggup sendiri

Namun tak kau lihat terkadang malaikat
Tak bersayap tak cemerlang tak rupawan
Namun kasih ini silakan kau adu
Malaikat juga tahu Aku kan jadi juaranya

Namun tak kau lihat terkadang malaikat
Tak bersayap tak cemerlang tak rupawan
Namun kasih ini silakan kau adu
Malaikat juga tahu Aku kan jadi juaranya

Dewi Dee Lestari - Malaikat Juga Tahu

out of my mind

My mind is filled with crazy things, crazy minds.

Then i read these phrases and can't let it go from my mind.

"To love someone is instinct

To be love by someone is luck

To live with someone you love is achievement

To live with someone who loves you is life"

Well,

I have the instinct, but maybe my luck is not yet come

I have achieve the thing, but still waiting for a life

Oh life.

Me, wondering how the future will be

Harder

You make it harder for me to go..
really..
but at the same time you also give peaceful and warmth in the heart of mine..
thank you..
for everything..

now,
we shud keep struggling..
for not to neutralized the addiction ;p
yes, we refer to me and you

and start counting now..

60 more days without you..

kenangan

Sebuah kenangan manis..

Dikala dunia menjadi begitu sempit..
Dikala waktu menjadi begitu singkat..

Sesaat sebelum kepergian ku..
60 days to go..

falling!

Dear,
I am falling deeper and deeper..
I am falling head over heels

. . .

I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it

You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was

You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your faults

Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service

You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your faults

You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience

You're the best listener that I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long

I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now

You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your faults

You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your faults

Alanis Morissette - Head Over Feet

blushed

my dear,

you make me blushed again...

toooooo sweet!

duh kirain kenapa tiba2 pegang2 tangan eik...

hehehe

Pulang kampung

Start:	Oct 27, '08 06:00a
End:	Dec 27, '08
Location:	pondok kelapa oye

data collection sembari bersenang2..
uhuy!

kupu

I was jealous, even when I don’t have any rights to feel that
But I can’t lie to my self that I do jealous of her
Maybe not exactly jealous, but I can sense there something different with the way she treating you
It is just too much..
Maybe I am afraid, or maybe I am just not use to the idea of you having a girl friend

I won’t say it out loud to you that I am jealous
Because I am trying not to

I can only ask you to be careful with that girl feelings

And you said “Don’t be ridiculous! Not all girls are like you.. or her..”
The two girls that fell head over heels for you

You are a butterfly
Too gorgeous, and don’t even realize that you’ve put your charm on everyone near you
Even though you claimed yourself as an introvert person
But you are easily perch from one flower to another, without any other intention than to help those flowers pollinating
But the flowers might take it wrong
And I am being jealous because you care too much for the flowers in other’s garden, but most of the time you forget your own flowers and leave them dried

You know that I am right, that my girly intuition is right
You can sense these things, just like you sense mine since the first time we met
But all you did was denial; you don’t want to believe it
And when you finally accept that it is right,
It is all too late
You can’t reverse the feeling I have

Dear butterfly,
I won't keep you under the glass
You are free, and more beautiful when you are free
It is just the way you are

I can’t and I won’t ask you to stay away from other flowers
Because I don’t have any rights
All I can ask is please be more careful with the way you act
You know the limit
You know when to stop being too nice and too caring
And please show your caring to the one who care you the most in a direct way
Sometimes indirect won’t work, you know it better than me :)
Quoting you: "You need to convey your message clear enough for others to understand"

. . .

When you love someone so deeply they become your life
It’s easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imaged I could keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you I must open my hands
And watch you rise

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun

If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage to be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will lead you back to me when you’re ready to land

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun

If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I can’t pretend these tears aren’t over flowing steadily
I can’t prevent this hurt from almost overtaking me
But will stand and say goodbye
For you’ll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun

If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun

If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

So flutter through the sky
Butterfly
Spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

Mariah Carey - Butterfly

Nguping Jakarta

Rating:	★★★★
Category:	Other

Mengaku sebagai tempat berkumpul para dialog absurd yang berseliweran di kota Jakarta dengan mengambil inspirasi dari Over heard in New York [http://overheardinnewyork.com/].
Dan memang terbaca seperti itu.
Postingan yang dikirim terasa nyata dari kehidupan sehari2, karena memang siapapun boleh mengirimkan laporan pandangan mata mereka langsung ke alamat imel nguping.jakarta@gmail.com.

Lumayan buat ngisi waktu senggang sambil nyengir2 sendiri :D

Bisa langsung diakses di http://ngupingjakarta.blogspot.com/

malam bainay

kisah ini sebenernya terjadi udah lama, tepatnya malam idul fitri kemaren..

yep, sudah 22 hari berlalu.. 

gak papa ya.. meski itung mundur.. hehehe

apa yang terjadi ketika dua orang yang romantis dan keras kepala berpadu?

begitu judul asli yang tadinya mau ditulis.

tapi karna satu dan lain hal, maka 'terpaksa' terjadi perubahan judul 

begini awalnya..
sejak beberapa hari sebelom lebaran, kangmas uda nyuruh2 saya buat mau dikenalin sama temennya, perempuan, buat dipakein mehndi..

apa itu mehndi?
itu adalah seperti henna (memang henna) yang diaplikasikan pada tangan dan kaki..
seperti ini contohnya..
kalo gambar disebelah ini adalah aplikasi mehndi buat ditangan..

balik ke cerita..
kata kangmas, dinegara asalnya, di malam idul fitri ada festival yang bernama chand raat.. 

"'Chand Raat' means 'night of the moon' in the Urdu language that marks the end of Ramadan and the start of Eid ul Fitr"..

itu definisi yang saya dapat setelah bertanya pada mbah gugel..

Dimalam itu para perempuan biasa mengaplikasikan mehndi ke sesama..

"Chand raat simply means "moon night", it can also mean a night with a full moon. It is a time of celebration when families and friends gather in open areas at the end of the last day of Ramadan to spot the new moon, which signals the arrival of the Islamic month of Shawwal and the day of Eid. Once the moon is sighted, people wish each other Chaand Raat Mubarak ("Have a blessed night of the new moon") or Eid Mubarak ("Blessings of the Eid day"). Women and girls decorate their hands with mehndi (henna), and people prepare desserts for the next day of Eid and do the last round of shopping." (Mbah Wiki)

karena sebelomnya si kangmas membawakan saya satu tube mehndi yang langsung diimpor dari negeri seribu pakis itu, 
jadi dia keukeuh sumarkekeuh ingin memperkenalkan seni ini ke saya..dengan menjodohkan saya dengan temannya..
akhirnya saya cuman bisa bilang "oke deh mas.."

tapi ternyata Tuhan punya rencana lain..
cieeeeh...

temannya tentu sudah punya rencana sendiri dong..
wong ini saat mereka merayakan bersama teman2 lain kok..
ya sud.. gagal lah rencana kangmas...

setelah malam itu kami agak bersitegang (halah bahasanya) dan berselisih paham serta berpundung2an karna hal2 yang ga penting..
saya punya rencana pingin bikin serprais buat si akang..
jadilah saya mulei mencari2 pattern yang bagus dan bisa saya apply sendiri..
tentu dengan kemampuan dan pengalaman saya yang nol besar..

kenapa saya ikutan kekeuh ingin mengaplikasikan mehndi?
karna this is a once in a life opportunity..

taun depan jelas saya tidak bersama kangmas lagi.. (trying to be realistic )
jadi kapan lagi coba saya bisa make ni mehndi dan memperlihatkannya pada kangmas..

setelah nemu design yang lumayan (lumayan bagus dan lumayan ga sulit tentunya )
saya mulei membuat pola ditangan kiri dengan menggunakan stabilo kuning..
setelah itu saya mulai menggoreskan mehndi pertama..

deg deg an... takut salah...

setelah puas dengan bentuk awalnya, saya goreskan mehndi kedua...

tiba2 telepon genggam saya berdering...

ternyata kangmas yang menelpon.. dan dia sudah dibawah rumah saya..

kageeeeet...

dengan sebelah tangan saya berusaha berpakaian yang lebih decent..

setelah itu saya turun kebawah..

disana kangmas menunggu dan langsung mengajak saya untuk ikut ke kamarnya...

saya kira dia mengajak karna berhubungan dengan sesuatu yang kami perdebatkan sebelumnya...

kemudian saya berkata "gak bisaa..."

dan mengutarakan berbagai alasan..

salah satunya adalah udah kemaleman.. 

ya iya lah..

waktu sudah menunjukkan pukul 2 pagi, sedangkan saya harus bangun jam 5 untuk bersiap menghadiri solat idul fitri di KBRI..

lalu dia berbalik dan bersiap pulang..

ntah kenapa tapi yang saya tangkep dia rada gimanaaa gitu..

akhirnya saya pegang tangannya, dan saya tunjukkanlah dua goresan yang sebelumnya saya buat dengan perasaan tak menentu (halah)..

kemudian saya berkata "saya tidak bisa ketempat mu.. karna ini belum selesai..." dan berusaha memberikan senyum termanis untuknya...

dia hanya tersenyum simpul dan berkata.. "okei"

kemudian pergi lah dia..

ternyata eh ternyata,

dia punya rencana lain buat saya, yang tentunya dia jadi kecewa..

untung saat itu saya berinisiatip menelpon dia, dan entah kenapa saya kekeuh mau dateng kesana..

ditempatnya lah saya baru tau kalo dia sudah mempersiapkan sesuatu..

ternyata dia ingin kami menggoreskan mehndi itu bersama..

karna satu tangan saya telah selesai berbalur, saya merajuk dia untuk mengerjakan tangan lainnya..

akhirnya saya berhasil sodara2...

jadilah malam itu (pagi lebih tepatnya) menjadi malam bainay saya

sukses kelar tepat sebelum waktunya bersiap ke KBRI

pelajaran kali ini:

dia itu kreatif, dan suka bikin rencana2 dan surprais2

tapi dia selalu mengutarakannya dengan cara yang tidak langsung

alhasil saya seringan tak sadar

saya juga suka bikin rencana2 dan surprais2

dan saya juga selalu mengutarakannya dengan cara yang tidak langsung

alhasil dia seringan tak sadar

jadi lain kali...

ngomong dong yang jelas..

hehehe

saya juga harus pinter2 baca situasi kapan harus kreatif dan kapan harus menyerahkan kreativitas sama dia..
untuk i'm good in doing multi tasking.. huehehehe

nah waktunya dipajang buah karya kami berdua..

tebak, mana yang buatan saya dan mana yang buatan dia 

satu kalimat yang dia lontarkan pada saat itu yang membuat saya bahagia..

katanya saya sudah menggantikan sebuah posisi yang sangat penting baginya..
saya menegaskan, apa saya hanya sebuah pengganti?
dan dia merevisi, "bukan pengganti, tapi menggantikan, maknanya jauh berbeda.."
dia sukses membuat saya bersemu-semu kemerahan..

another point for me!!!

total score 7-0 

egoist

this is what happen when two egoist met..

luckily both of us have different form of egoist..
the first one is egoist in a sense of having a really high ego, an inflated feeling of pride in your superiority to others
and the second is egoist in a sense of a conceited and self-centered person who concern about herself and her own needs, but don't have any ego if it's related with the first person

I realize you have ego more than an average man..
but i didn't learn my lessons well..
and i can't stop regretting that i've smashed your ego to the ground..

i know you need some time..
and i know the time you need may be endless..
well, you've wasted three months from you most valuable friend,
i can't imagine how much the time you can wasted from the time we might have..
but endless time is what we don't have..
and i am toooo selfish to let you go away from me..
and i don't have any ego if it concern with you..
that is why i keep trying and trying..
head over heels..
and hoping that you can compromised your ego with me..

aku bagai angin pantai..
yang tak jemu jemu membelai sang batu karang..

i really appreciate your effort to compromising..
even when you said it is not because what i did,
i don't care..
as long as you don't go..
be with me, my coral reef..

i am just an ordinary girl,
who wants to enjoy the leisure of next door neighbor Mercedes as long as i can
that has really comfort seats and cool air condition
i know i can't to buy one, at least not now
but i believe i will have one, even though most probably it can't be the same type
just wait and see where the destiny brings me to

sakit kepala

Ternyata menangis semalam hanya membuahkan sakit kepala saja..
Penantian semalam juga ternyata tidak membuahkan hasil..
Karna ternyata dirinya lebih keras dari batu karang..

Last night was your first,
and mine also..
I never meant to hurt you in any way..
But i realize that i did..
I cannot turn back time..
All i can have is regret..
and endless repent..
I am sorry..
I really am sorry..

. . .

kau sempat ucapkan pisah
saat kuberanjak pergi
tapi perasaanku
tak berpaling darimu

kau ucapkan jangan pergi
saat kudatang kembali
tapi luka ini
telah membeku tak mencair

tahukah kamu semalam tadi
aku menangis
mengingatmu mengenangmu
mungkin hatiku terluka dalam
atau selalu
terukirkan kenangan kita

kau telah hadirkan dia
untuk menggantikan aku
tanpa kau sadari
aku tak kan pernah terganti

kau ingin tinggalkan dia
dan menyandingku kembali
ini tak kan adil
buatku ataupun dirinya

tahukah kamu semalam tadi
aku menangis
mengingatmu mengenangmu
mungkin hatiku terluka dalam
atau selalu
terukirkan kenangan kita

tahukah kamu semalam tadi
aku menangis
mengingatmu mengenangmu
mungkin hatiku terluka dalam
atau selalu
terukirkan kenangan kita

Audy - Menangis Semalam

roller coaster

I really do think that this is the first time i ever being in a roller coaster like relationship

Everytime i over-enjoyed, something happen, and it destroyed..

But we always able to attached all parts together again..

But until when?

My feeling is not pure gold nor diamond,

It is diamond covered with gold..

when it breaks, i can be melted and reshaped,

the diamond parts wil be broke in to pieces..

and everytime it breaks, it became smaller and smaller pieces..

but it always there..

each time it breaks, it become more and more combined with the gold,

make the golden bar more shiny..

So i guess, it will always be like that until the end 

you are my everything.

i gave you my everything.

no need to have doubt on me.

caught in the middle

I am caught in the middle, again, i didn't learn my lesson well
I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared, even when i don't show it, i think u should know by now
I can't figure out what i want
I'm a fool, out of love
'Coz I just can't get enough
But it's bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go
Why can't you just enjoy the show?

. . .

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone, I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down, make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Coz it's too much, yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool, out of love
'Coz I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone, I've tried
And I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared, but don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down, I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot, in the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time

It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone, I've tried
And I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared, but don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down, I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Oh oh
Just enjoy the show
Oh oh

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone, I've tried
And I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared, but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down, I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Dum de dum
Dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

Dudum de dum
Dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

Lenka - The Show

Na'at

he introduce me to this na'at (i always said music but then he always corrected me) through his alarm tone on his cell,
and its just keep staying in my brain..
i really like it..
and now i made it as my own tone (after giving efforts in finding the song, i mean na'at, in youtube, convert it into mp3, and cut the best part of it :D)

The singer is a British Muslim singer-songwriter of Iranian Azeri origin, born in Tehran, Iran in 1980 and raised in London. He is really good looking also ;p

The na'at consist of four different language, english, arabic, hindi, and turkish.
enjoy

. . .

Allahu Allah
Allahu Allah
Allahu Allah

O Allah the Almighty (Allahu Allah)
Protect me and guide me (Allahu Allah)
To your love and mercy (Allahu Allah)

Ya Allah dont deprive me (Allahu Allah)
From beholding your beauty (Allahu Allah)
O my Lord accept this plea (Allahu Allah)

(Arabic)
Hasbi rabbi jallallah (Allahu Allah) [My Lord is enough for me, Glory be to Allah]
Ma fi qalbi ghayrullah (Allahu Allah) [There is nothing in my heart except Allah]

(Hindi)
Wo tanha kaun hai (Allahu Allah) [Who is the only One?]
Badshah wo kaun hai (Allahu Allah) [Who is the King?]
Meherba wo kaun hai (Allahu Allah) [Who is the Merciful?]

Kya unchi shan hai (Allahu Allah) [Who is the most praised and benevolent?]
Uskey sab nishan hai (Allahu Allah) [Whatever you see in this world is His sign]
Sab dilon ki jan hai (Allahu Allah) [Hes the love of every soul]

(Arabic)
Hasbi rabbi jallallah (Allahu Allah) [My Lord is enough for me, Glory be to Allah]
Ma fi qalbi ghayrullah (Allahu Allah) [There is nothing in my heart except Allah]

(Turkish)
Affeder gunahi (Allahu Allah) [He is the Forgiver of all sins]
Alemin padisahi (Allahu Allah) [He is the King of the universe]
Yureklerin penahi (Allahu Allah) [He is the Refuge of all hearts]

Isit Allah derdimi, bu ahlarimi [O Allah hear my sorrows and my sighs]
Rahmeyle, bagisla gunahlarimi [Have mercy and pardon my sins]
Hayreyle hem aksam hem sabahlarimi [Bless my night and days]

(Arabic)
Hasbi rabbi jallallah (Allahu Allah) [My Lord is enough for me, Glory be to Allah]
Ma fi qalbi ghayrullah (Allahu Allah) [There is nothing in my heart except Allah]

Ya rabbal alamin (Allahu Allah) [O Lord of the worlds]
Salli ala Tahal amin (Allahu Allah) [Send peace and blessings, On Ta-ha the trustworthy]
Fi kulli waqtin wa hin (Allahu Allah) [In every time and at every instant]

Imla qalbi bil yaqin (Allahu Allah) [Fill my heart with conviction]
Thabbitni ala hadhad din (Allahu Allah) [Make me steadfast on this Religion]
Waghfir li wal muslimin (Allahu Allah) [And forgive me and all the believers]

(Arabic)
Hasbi rabbi jallallah (Allahu Allah) [My Lord is enough for me, Glory be to Allah]
Ma fi qalbi ghayrullah (Allahu Allah) [There is nothing in my heart except Allah]

Sami Yusuf - Hasbi Rabbi

pavements

i was on the pavements that i always yearning for,

but now i should move on, by force,

life, oh life..

hentikan

saya ingin dapat menghentikan waktu..

melupakan semua hiruk pikuk yang memburu..

dan hanya menghabiskan waktu dengan mu..

sigh..

setooooop!

kerja vs kuliah

saat ini saya benar2 ingin bekerja..

saya tak ingin kuliah!!!!!!!!!

enak kalo kerja..

kao bosen tinggal cabut..

bisa pulang kerumah tanpa ada kerjaan apa2...

iri rasanya tiap kali membaca plurk teman2 yang bekerja tentang 'ketidak ngapa2in'nya mereka..

meski saya tau mereka mungkin juga iri dengan situasi saya yang ga ngapa2in juga...

tapi melakukan thesis ini bikin saya muak!

salah satu teman saya bahkan ber-statement "i want to quit my study, i don;t need master degree, i only want to have knowledge.. and now i got the things i want, and i also know how to conduct research.. i don't want to do thesis"..

tentunya dia hanya omdo alias omong doang..

tapi itulah jeritan hati para kami yang sedang mengerjakan thesis yang bahkan proposal pun tak kunjung selesai..

aaaaaaaah!!!!

i fed up with this thesis thingy!

sidaaaang

Start:	Oct 9, '08 3:30p
End:	Oct 9, '08 4:30p
Location:	uem meeting room

mudah2an this one is for real..
:D
doakan saya!

jealousy

i wish i can tell you how happy i am when you asked a simple question tonight...

"with whom did you go to taladnat?"

with my friends..

"which friends?"

my indonesian friends..

"who are they?"

mas sigit.. nino...

"boys?"

hmmm.. 3 boys and 3 girls..

why?

"nothing, just asking"..

a little bit of jealous i assume?

kikikik.. 

me, again in the mood of counting how many days left that i can spend with you.. 

i don't wanna go home.. 

bangkok film festival, 27 sept 08

akhirnya bisa juga nonton bangkok international film festival..
exactly on my birthday!

berhasil nonton dua film..
yang pertama "vicky cristina barcelona", sebuah film garapan woody allen..
two tumbs up!!!

yang kedua pilm dokumenter yang berjudul "the betrayal"..
tentang perang laos..
sebenernya bagus sih.. tapi agak membosankan..
mana pemerannya kagak ada yang cakep barang sedikit pun lagi ;p
apalagi sebelomnya saya cuman tidur 2 jam..
alhasil saya terlelap ditengah2 pilm dan terbangun pas banget credit title.. huehehe

yang ketiga dengan judul "in search of a midnight kiss"..
sutradaranya dijulukin "woody allan muda"..
setipe sama pelm pertama itu..
ga rugi juga nontonnya..
setelah puas (alias capek pinggang) nonton, kita ngabuburit nunggu buka puasa sambil ngeliat pameran photo "Earth from above"..
sumpaaah.. kereeeeen...
nyesel baru liat sekarang, padahal uda dari bulan juni, dan berakhir tanggal 30..
ga sempet liat lama lama.. soalnya keburu magrip dan perut uda keroncongan..

melangkahlah kami berempat ke pizza company..
sebuah perayaan kecil2an yang tidak direncanakan..
betapa beruntungnya kalian bertiga.. huehehe

what a silent birthday..
but a fun day!

berpelancong di hari raya, 01okt08

setelah sukses makan enak di KBRI kini waktunya jalan2..
berkat van sewaan yang dibayari KBRI, kita berpesiar ke daerah Nakon Pathom..

tujuan pertama ke floating warket, yang ternyata kalo ga weekend ga ada marketnya (halah)..
alhasil kita cuman liat2 ikan patin raksasa, beli nangka yang suk suk alias mateng banget (nyam nyam), beli cayen, beli sendal jepit yang ada ban pelampungnya.. hehehe.. kok jadi belanja ;p

tujuan kedua adalah rose garden, yang ternyata ga ada rose nya (halah)
alhasil kita poto2 aja..

dan yang ketiga ke pagoda (pastilles) yang ga tau namanya apa..
ketemu kamar mandi yang enaaaaak...
huehehe..
penting tuh kalo lagi perjalanan jauh gini :)

meski rasanya membosankan dan agak basi, tapi lumayan dapet banyak poto2 :D

Lebaranan di KBRI - 1 oktober 2008

Minal aidin wal faidizin..
Mohon Maaf lahir dan bathin...

tahun ini untuk kedua kalinya saya merayakan lebaran idul fitri di KBRI...
ditengah rerintikan hujan yang telah mengguyur dari pagi, solat ied pun dipindahkan ke GSG..
tapi hujan itu tidak menghalangi niat kami buat makan lontong (ga ada ketupat, hiks) dan lauk pauknya yang tentunya bikin kolesterol jadi tinggi.. huehehehe...

tapi sayang sekali lebaran kali ini tidak saya habiskan bersama tiga orang niat..
karna dua orang niatnya sedang hijrah ke bandung..
miss you girls..

contemplating

Another year has passed..
Getting older
And having less time to be spent in this world 

I think it is the time to contemplate
Time to look back
Look on what I have been doing to my self until today
I should start to make decision
Making up my mind
Making up my heart
I know I should go out from this never ending circle sooner or later
I don’t know can I go
I don’t know do I really want to go

But I do learn one thing today
That I shall not have any expectation
And also no hopes nor wishes
It is more safe that way

Happy birthday my dear me..
You are one more step closer to the maturity

suasana ramadhan

berawal dari anto yang berbagi sebuah link di plurk..
tentang poto2 suasana ramadhan diseluruh belahan dunia..
dari sekian banyak poto itu, 4 (kalo ga salah itung) dari indo..
jujur, poto2 nya menakjubkan..
makanya saya ingin berbagi disini..

foto pertama dari indonesia yang saya paling suka adalah tentang suasana solat jumat di mesjid istiqlal..
kita kadang suka lupa (saya lebih tepatnya) betapa besar mesjid ini..
dan betapa ia bisa menampung sebegini banyak orang..
Photo by: Irwin Fedriansyah

foto kedua adalah gambar seorang perempuan yang sedang mengaji di mesjid istiqlal..
sudut pengambilan gambarnya bagus kalo menurut saya mah (sok tau fotografi )
berikut lah gambarnya..
Photo by: Adek Berry
beranjak ke foto ketiga dari negara kita..
tentang gambar seorang anak laki2 yang tertidur didalam mesjid sambil nunggu waktunya berbuka..
kalo yang ini diambil dari sebuah mesjid di Makasar sana..
menggemaskan banget deeeeh..
terus poto ini juga cucok buat iklan cairan pembersih lantai
Photo by: Yusuf Ahmad

nah beranjak kita dari negeri tercinta..
poto pertama dari mancanegara yang saya suka banget..
sebuah penampakan sunset yang dengan latar depan (karna sunsetnya jadi latar belakang) Faisal Mosque, di Islamabad, Pakistan..
Photo by: Wally Santana.
gambar kedua adalah masih dari negeri seribu pakis.. (hihihi)
tepatnya dari kota Lahore,
gambar minuman berbuka mereka..
yang kebayang adalah sirop tjempolay campur susu
dan menurut sumber yang terpercaya katanya minuman ini emang terkenal banget dinegerinya sana..
dan katanya enak banget rasanya..
isinya mix fruit sherbat (ga tau nulisnya bener apa enggak) alias sari buah dicampur susu..
Photo by: Arif Ali

foto ketiga masih lagi2 dari negeri yang sama..
tentang makanan berbuka mereka yang disiapkan oleh seorang anak, dengan lokasi di Memon Mosque, Karachi.
yang saya bingung... apa itu porsi buat seorang?
kok tampak buanyak banget yaaa..
Photo by: Athar Hussain

Selanjutnya sebuah foto yang didedikasikan buat niken alias mbee..
yang menggambarkan tumpukan pisang!!
hehehe..
katanya permintaan akan pisang meningkat dibulan Ramadhan ini..
apa hubungannya kah?
tapi saya juga jadi rajin beli pisang di bulan ini..
buat ngeganjel kalo saurnya kurang kenyang
Still from Pakistan, Ismlamabad..
Photo by:Farooq Naeem

Nah foto yang terakhir pilihan saya jatuh pada negeri Palestina, tepatnya di daerah West Bank City, Ramallah.
tampilan seorang anak perempuan yang sedang melaksanakan taraweh..
tapi heran kok sendirian..
agak ga natural sih..
berasa diset gitu..
cuman saya mah teteup suka
Photo by: Muhammed Muheissen

Silahkan kalau ingin melihat2 lebih banyak poto bisa langsung ke alamat ini.

And let us spread the spirit of the holy month, Ramadhan..

birthday birthday

Start:	Sep 27, '08 12:00a
End:	Sep 27, '08 11:45p
Location:	still in AIT

selamat ulang taun ke seperempat abad lebih satu :)
semoga taun depan lebih baik dari taun kemarin..
amin

erase and rewind

You really want to turn back time..
And return to innocence..
You don't know how much i really want..
To rewind the life that we live..
Do what i did sooner..
And wish it would make something different..

But this is life..
And this is not the beginning of the end..

If you want then laugh..
If you must then cry..
Be yourself don't hide..
Just believe in destiny..
And be sure that you know
That i am here..
To fix you..

Another song from his most favorite band (if i can call them as a band) of all time..

. . .

Love..
Devotion..
Feeling..
Emotion..

Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence

The return to innocence

If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny

Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence

That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence

To return to innocence.

Enigma - Return to innocence

beku

Love is a bird and she needs to fly
Let all the hurt inside of you die..
You waste your time with hate and regret..
Now there's no point in placing the blame..
Just do the things that you think is the best..
Things that you can do to make everything alright..

I only see what my eyes want to see..
How can life be what I want it to be..
I need to learn to deal with the reality..
And so do you..

i wish i can melt your heart..
but she hold the key..

We are like a melting ice cube that cannot escape its nature.
Yet, maybe that’s the most beautiful thing about us..

one of his favorite song..

. . .

You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
You're frozen
When your heart's not open

You're so consumed with how much you get
You waste your time with hate and regret
You're broken
When your heart's not open

Mm.. If I could melt your heart
Mm.. we'd never be apart
Mm.. give yourself to me
Mm.. you hold the key

Now there's no point in placing the blame
And you should know I suffer the same
If I lose you
My heart will be broken

Love is a bird, she needs to fly
Let all the hurt inside of you die
You're frozen
When your heart's not open

Mm.. if I could melt your heart
Mm.. we'd never be apart
Mm.. give yourself to me
Mm.. you hold the key

You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
You're frozen
When your heart's not open

Mm.. if I could melt your heart
Mm.. we'd never be apart
Mm.. give yourself to me
Mm.. you hold the key

Mm.. if I could melt your heart
Mm.. we'd never be apart
Mm.. give yourself to me
Mm.. you hold the key

If I could melt your heart..

Madonna - Frozen

reality strikes back

this early morning, i've tried to deny the reality for i don't know how many times..
pretending that i am in different situation..
that he is someone that he is not...
and we live in a different world and not the real one..
i am trying not to care for others but me..
yes, i am being selfish as always..

but tonight the reality strikes again..
and make me realize that even how hard you try to deny the reality..
it is still a reality..
reality, something that is real..
and it's ready to hits you when whenever you are not alert of it..
at your most unprepared moment..

today, reality wins from imaginer, K.O.

but hey, i am still learning to be a grown up..
i will be fine..
and i believe you will too..

welcome to this world.. the heartfruit of my love..

kangeun

bingung? sama..
saya juga ga pernah punya rencana bakal nge-post lagu dari kangen band..
tapi ini semua gara2 ando yang nge-plurk tentang lagu ini...
langsung saya cari di youtub, penasaran soalnya..

di tahun 2008 ini kangen band menelurkan album barunya yang berjudul "bintang 14 hari"..
Salah satu singlenya ya lagu ini..
menurut saya kualitas suaranya jauh membaik..
tapi ga tau beneran membaik atau sekadar teknik perekaman yang lebih bagus alias dimanipulasi..
tapi kualitas lagunya sendiri juga bagus..
meski awal denger asa familiar..
ternyata akhirnya saya menyimpulkan kalo mirip banget sama tipikal lagu peterpan yang dulu..
gaya nyanyinya pun mirip sama ariel, terutama dibagian refrain nya..

tapi secara keseluruhan saya menikmati lagunya kok..
meski masi gak nahan sama poni sang mas mas itu..
huehehehe..

gimana pendapat kalian?

. . .

Sejenak ku terdiam dan membisu
Membuatku lelah dan tanpa arah
Coba mengertilah
Coba pahamilah
Arti cinta sesungguhnya

Dan letakkan hatimu di sini
Ku berjanji kau tak kan kusakiti
Sejuk sepi sedang
Dan tanyakan bintang
Hanya kaulah yang ku sayang

Ku latih kau terbang di atas awan
Agar kau tegar dan tak terkalahkan
Jadilah jagoan seperti yang kuinginkan
Agar dapat kubanggakan

Namun sikapmu kini telah berubah
Membuatku resah dan serba salah
Kau berdiam diri membuat nadiku berhenti
Katakanlah hei kekasih

Coba kau pikirkan,
Coba kau renungkan
Apa yang kau inginkan telah aku lakukan

Coba kau pikirkan,
Coba kau renungkan
Tanya bintang-bintang hanya kaulah yang ku sayang

Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan
Apa yang kau butuhkan telah aku berikan

Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan...

Coba kau pikirkan
Coba kau renungkan
Apa yang kau inginkan telah aku lakukan

Coba kau pikirkan
Coba kau renungkan
Tanya bintang-bintang hanya kaulah yang ku sayang

Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan
Apa yang kau butuhkan telah aku berikan

Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan

Coba kau pikirkan
Coba kau renungkan
Apa yang kau butuhkan telah aku berikan

Coba kau pikirkan
Coba kau renungkan
Tanya bintang-bintang hanya kaulah yang ku sayang

Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan
Apa yang kau butuhkan telah aku berikan

Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan...

Kangen Band - Doy

proposal defense!!!!!!!!!

Start:	Sep 30, '08 3:00p
End:	Sep 30, '08 4:00p
Location:	UEM meeting room

doakan saya!

semoga lebarannya ga tanggal 30..
hihihihi

if

what if, what if, what if..

if you're not..
will it be better..

if you're not..
will it be worst..

keep thinking of what if..
but what if never comes..

i know i should stop thinking..
everything happens for a reason..
yes, i do believe..

selingkuh

Selingkuh itu indah..
Tapi sayang tidak untuk selamanya..

untuk perselingkuhan kita
ketika aku menjadi sang gadis berkepang dua..

. . .

Betapa ku mengerti
sebagai selingkuhan mu
ku harus menjalani
ikatan yang tersembunyi

Ku mencoba bertahan
meskipun menyakitkan
tak menyisakan sebuah sesal
di hati ku

Selama aku bisa
membuat mu bahagia
berpaling ku tak mungkin
singgahi hati yang lain

Sebatas harapan ku
mohon pengertian mu
bahwa ku ingin memiliki mu
seutuhnya

Seiring berlalu
bergulirnya waktu
membuka rahasia
diantara kita

Pastinya kan ada
hati yang terluka
tak menerima semua kenyataan yang ada

Namun tak selayaknya
perselingkuhan ini
yang lama ku lalui
menjadi tiada berarti

Semenjak ku merasa
harap mu sia-sia
hingga terluka hati kan membuat mu
tak berdaya

Mungkin ku relakan
untuk kau tinggalkan
diri ku disini
harus mengakhiri

Aku yang merasa
lelah dan menyerah
karna tak selamanya selingkuh itu indah

Biarkan cerita kita
terpisah adanya
Bila memang kita
tak mungkin bersama
selamanya

Seiring berlalu
bergulirnya waktu
membuka rahasia
diantara kita

Pastinya kan ada
hati yang terluka
tak menerima semua kenyataan yang ada

Mungkin ku relakan
untuk kau tinggalkan
diri ku disini
harus mengakhiri

Aku yang merasa
lelah dan menyerah
karna tak selamanya selingkuh itu indah

Betapa ku mengerti
sebagai selingkuhan mu
ku harus menjalani
ikatan yang tersembunyi

Merpati Band - Tak selamanya selingkuh itu indah

teruntuk

untuk sesuatu yang kita mulai terlambat..
untuk sesuatu yang kita mulai dengan ragu-ragu..
untuk sesuatu yang kita mulai meski tak ada waktu..
untuk sesuatu yang kita mulai lagi pagi ini..

yang kemarin bukanlah akhir cerita kita
tapi sebuah pembelajaran untuk tidak memulai dengan terburu-buru..

cukup perlahan tapi pasti
alon-alon asal kelakon :)

. . .

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me
So kiss me
So kiss me
So kiss me

Sixpence None the Richer - Kiss me

downstairs neighbor's alarm

what a cheezy song!
so why do i post it here?

well.. don't blame me..
it's the downstairs neighbor's fault..
i've been hearing this song since 5 am..
and it keep on repeating until.. now.. almost 7..
no wonder!
who the hell use this song as an alarm sound?
r u kidding me???

but actually this is a guilty pleasure song for me..
and yes, i do admit that there is a time when i like this song..
yes.. i actually like this song..
well, it was the beginning of the year of the millenia..
no wonder.. ;p

so for the sake of contaminating others
i would like to share this song..
enjoy :)

. . .

well i wonder could it be
when i was dreaming 'bout you baby
you were dreaming of me

call me crazy
call me blind
to still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

did i lose my love to someone better
and does she loves you like i do
i do
you know i really really do

well hey
so much i need to say
been lonely since the day
the day you went away

so sad but true
for me there's only you
been crying since the day
the day you went away

i remember date and time
september twenty second
sunday
twenty five after nine

in the doorway with your case
no longer shouting at each other
there were tears on our faces

and we were letting go of something special
something we'll never have again
i know
i guess i really really know

well hey
so much i need to say
been lonely since the day
the day you went away

so sad but true
for me there's only you
been crying since the day
the day you went away
the day you went away
the day you went away

did i lose my love to someone better
and does she lobe you like i do
i do
i really really do

well hey
so much i need to say
been lonely since the day
the day you went away

so sad but true
for me there's only you
been crying since the day
the day you went away

why do we never know what we've got 'till its gone
how could i carry on
the day you went away

cause i've been missing you so much i have to say
been crying since the day
the day you went away
the day you went away
the day you went away

M2M - the day you went away