An idiom

Dear,

It is just like telling you that it hurts when you hit me

And you said that you like to hit, and it is just you, and you can't change, you don't want to change

On the other hand, I am no one, not a person that can ask you to change your self

I know it hurts, but i'm too much care for you to leave you

Then you keep hitting me

and i keep being hurt

until one day, i die

people can call me stupid for keep being with you, but it is a choice in life that i will never regret

I think now i can understand how the victims of domestic violance think 

And NO, i'm not being violated by anyone 

late

What did i do last year
At the end of november
How can i passing by you without knowing what i am loosing
But now it is too late
I am no one, and will never be someone for you
Even though I'm late, but you are still the best

. .

Where are u all this time
The angel that I’ve been waiting for
Why is it just now that we are being assembled

Regrets don’t have any meaning
Because all things have happened
Now you will spend the rest of your life with her

Maybe it is my fault
Not recognizing you,
Not looking for you,
With all my heart
I'm sorry

My fault
Not recognizing you
Thus now you are with someone else
I’m sorry

If it can be rewind
You will be recognize
With all my heart I’ll look for where you are

Even though I'm late
You are still the best
Seeing you
Listen to you
You are the best

. . .

Kemana kau selama ini
Bidadari yang kunanti
Kenapa baru sekarang
Kita dipertemukan

Sesal tak kan ada arti
Karna semua telah terjadi
Kini kau telah menjalani
Sisa hidup dengannya

Mungkin salahku...
Melewatkanmu...
Tak mencarimu...
Sepenuh hati...
Maafkan aku...

Kesalahanku...
Melewatkanmu...
Hingga kau kini...
Dengan yang lain...
Maafkan aku...

Jika berulang kembali
Kau tak akan terlewati
Segenap hati kucari
Dimana kau berada

Mungkin salahku...
Melewatkanmu...
Tak mencarimu...
Sepenuh hati...
Maafkan aku...

Kesalahanku...
Melewatkanmu...
Hingga kau kini...
Dengan yang lain...
Maafkan aku...

Walau ku terlambat
Kau tetap yang terhebat
Melihatmu...
Mendengarmu...
Kaulah yang terhebat

Sheila on 7 - Yang terlewatkan

cinta kah?

A fifty-seven times for you mas..

. . .

I just wanna say I love you
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Potret – I just wanna say I love you

a trilogy books, can i?

this year i feel like my life has suddenly transformed into a soap opera.

and again my ambition to write a novel rises..

i start to imagine how it will be..

(well, i think it can be divided into three books.. a trilogy )

i started to make the chapter titles..

but if i really want to accomplish it i should work hard..

because last time i fail.. just lost my desire to write on the way.. maybe because at that time that story was just too hurtful..

now lets see what will happen next..

wish me luck guys.. 

the time

When that time will come,
I might not able to be there for you anymore..
But you know that this heart is yours until that time is come.

Aku ikhlas mas,
are you?

Take care naa..
Rab Raakha

. . .

Lelahmu jadi lelahku juga
Bahagiamu bahagiaku juga
Berbagi takdir kita selalu
Kecuali tiap kau jatuh hati

Kali ini hampir habis dayaku
Membuktikan padamu ada cinta yang nyata
Setia hadir setiap hari
Tak tega biarkan kau sendiri
Meski seringkali kau malah asyik sendiri

Karena kau tak lihat terkadang malaikat
Tak bersayap tak cemerlang tak rupawan
Namun kasih ini silakan kau adu
Malaikat juga tahu siapa yang jadi juaranya

Hampamu tak kan hilang semalam
Oleh pacar impian
Tetapi kesempatan untukku yang mungkin tak sempurna
Tapi siap untuk diuji
Kupercaya diri
Cintaku yang sejati

Namun tak kau lihat terkadang malaikat
Tak bersayap tak cemerlang tak rupawan
Namun kasih ini silakan kau adu
Malaikat juga tahu siapa yang jadi juaranya

Kau selalu meminta terus kutemani
Engkau selalu bercanda andai wajahku diganti
Relakan ku pergi
Karna tak sanggup sendiri

Namun tak kau lihat terkadang malaikat
Tak bersayap tak cemerlang tak rupawan
Namun kasih ini silakan kau adu
Malaikat juga tahu Aku kan jadi juaranya

Namun tak kau lihat terkadang malaikat
Tak bersayap tak cemerlang tak rupawan
Namun kasih ini silakan kau adu
Malaikat juga tahu Aku kan jadi juaranya

Dewi Dee Lestari - Malaikat Juga Tahu

out of my mind

My mind is filled with crazy things, crazy minds.

Then i read these phrases and can't let it go from my mind.

"To love someone is instinct

To be love by someone is luck

To live with someone you love is achievement

To live with someone who loves you is life"

Well,

I have the instinct, but maybe my luck is not yet come

I have achieve the thing, but still waiting for a life

Oh life.

Me, wondering how the future will be