hancur

melihat dia hancur menyadarkan saya bahwa langkah yang saya ambil salah..
tak ada habisnya saya menyesali semua perbuatan saya..
tak ada habisnya kata maaf saya lontarkan, pada nya, pada nya, dan pada diri saya sendiri..
meski saya akui memang sudah niat saya menghancurkan hubungan itu, tapi tetap saya masih punya hati nurani..
apalagi ketika saya harus memilih antara hati mereka yang hancur atau hati saya yang hancur..
feels like two against one..
it's not fair, but life is not always about fairness..
i'm glad it's not about democracy..
but still..

I know this is the responsibility that i should take for what i have done..
I am crushed and shredded into pieces,
but hey, i will be fine when the sun start to shine (even though i dont know in which part of the earth it will be)

God, You know what is best for me, for him, for her, for all of us..
please lead us to the right path of Yours..

humanity

when my love one is hurted, and feel crushed,
all i want to do is cure him..
even though it hurts me.. more then he was hurted before..
why, love, oh why..

sigh...

lately i have a bad habit..
i create a thinking that everytime we spent is our last time..
and that thinking has bad impact on me..
sigh...
i'm not suppose to think like that..
and i'm not suppose to give you my everything..
isn't it?
sigh...

my fruit

biasalah, kalo lagi mo fokus ke kerjaan (aka thesis) selalu aja ada yang lebih penting buat dikerjain..
salah satunya ya apa lagi kalo bukan ngerjain kuis kuisan

untuk kuis yang ini saya gak bisa ngasih linknya..
karena ini termasuk kuis yang ada di facebook..

pertanyaan kuisnya begini:
What kind of fruit are you?

dan setelah menjawab beberapa pertanyaan, ini lah jawaban tipe buah saya:

I'm Banana!
You are a softie! Loving, gentle, warm and sympathetic by nature is the banana lover. You often lack in self-confidence and are quite timid by nature. People often take advantage of your sweet temperedness, and sheer vulnerability to a situation. You adore your partner both for their mental and physical beauty! Your relationship is always in harmony!

and yes.. i do like banana! any kind of it..

reality

reality sucks..
reality hurts..

ความเป็นจริง:หมองใจ

perasaan

perasaan kapasitas perut saya mengecil..
tapi kenapa kok perasaan perut ini mangkin buncit ya..
sigh..
apa mulai perlu rangkaian sit ap lagi?

air pollution caused by a one night show

China has been struggling so hard to reduce their air pollution for this Olympic game.
But, how much do you think additional air pollution is produce by that huge torch of eternal flame?

Beijing 2008 Olympics

91 thousand people inside the stadium
2008 drummers
And many more..

A magical opening ceremony..
enjoy..